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i leave in approximately 9.5 days for delft. there are a large number of things i must do before sitting on that aer lingus plane. hopefully i'll complete most of the them, at least the essential ones. the school environment itself isn't making me nervous yet because i am still worrying about things like opening a bank account and if i'll have enough money to eat or see anything in europe. overall the preparation process hasn't made me that eager, but i think the attraction is in the living experience and the ability to explore a completely foreign situation alone.

one of my friends recently mentioned he only travels alone and it made me realize that i haven't ever traveled by myself (at least with nobody waiting for me when i arrive). the prospect of being alone and able to do whatever i want all the time is both freeing and potentially depressive. i will try to have so much fun that i begin to twitch and convulse. another friend once said it isn't worth it if you don't feel like throwing up.

ok, enough for now. i'll write more intellectually probing thoughts at a later date and earlier hour.